Shadow Play
For more years of my adult life than not, I’ve bit back speaking what I my heart-body senses to be true in attempt to — if I’m being real af - not be perceived as the villain.
I feared - and, I am still am working with the this fear - that if I spoke from the truth in my heart it would be too sharp, too precise, too cutting. I feared that if I would be perceived as mean. So, I learned to soften the edges a whole lot. To be palatable.
“Soul is always trying to get Spirit laid.”
Francis Weller
The last couple years, my soul’s assignment has been to find the sharp edges again - to honor their intelligence. To live them. To speak them. To discern. To move from the truth that my body undeniably feels, even when my rational mind attempts to belittle the truth. My rational mind does this in an attempt to keep me safe…
But, what I’m learning as I play with the archetype of the villain is that villain is a matter of perception.
With this understanding comes the painful, hilarious, gritty & relieving shedding of layer after layer after layer of this domesticated, play-nice skin I’ve been conditioned to live in.
I’ve been learning that playing “nice” by side stepping the truth of my experience as means to try not to harm or hurt another person’s feelings is not by any means nice.
It is selfish.
It is a way to try to protect myself.
And, it is not wrong, but it is not my soul’s assignment.
The assignment is not one of villain vs hero, but one of integration of both. The becoming one with the whole spectrum, which blooms into the visceral understanding that villain & hero are polarities. They are, in a sense, complimentary.
They are villain ♾️ hero
soul ♾️ spirit,
respectively.
We need both.
And when we befriend both. When we shadow play, cultivating a relationship, an understanding of both, we transcend the limits of either or. We breathe ourselves beyond the binary.
I imagine you’ve been feeling something similar to this experience. Gone are the days of black & white, good & bad. Here are the days of dynamic paradox, embodied by we, humans.
Shadow play, opening to sensation & learning to trust the truth of our bodies, is the fuel of transformation.
Transformation asks us to have the courage to say it’s both this & that & so much more. The curiosity of leaving behind morality in exchange for our own truth. The looking in the dark places. The going all the way into them. The opening to the dark, knowing we must do this if we care to be wife open to the light. For, light always sees darkness. The cultivation of relationship to shadow & playful, imagination-infused embodiment of theses shadow parts, which allows us to be in dynamic, relationship to them.
Come, shadow play your way into transformation -
We will guide you into your body to play with the Trinity of Transformation.
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Cheers to the dance, y’all. Remember, creation is the revolution.